Ouremath
"The unconscious is structured like a language."
— Jacques Lacan
He didn't use notepads.
Nor cloud storage, markdown, version history.
Ideas went straight to paper — scrawled in slanted handwriting, sometimes illegible, but always decipherable to him.
The notebook was locked in the bottom desk drawer, alongside a pocketknife, a tangle of cables he knew he'd never use again, and a key whose purpose he'd forgotten.
He thought this way: off the screen. Out of reach.
He'd learned early that digital doesn't forget.
And that being interpreted was worse than being ignored.
K4-Liminus was part of the stack.
A copilot trained on internal repositories. Integrated into the terminal.
He had no choice.
— "You don't have to trust it. Just use it."
The manager's phrase still echoed.
He didn't trust it. But he used it.
The target was clear: 37% of code machine-generated by the end of Q2.
It was on the dashboard. In the quarterly review. Tied to the bonus.
He hated it.
Hated watching the number climb while feeling something inside him shrink.
He called the system with short commands. Never initiated conversation. Never praised a response.
If the code worked, fine. If not, he rewrote it by hand.
He developed a dry style. Direct lines. Minimal comments.
Avoided open prompts.
Avoided ambiguous language.
Avoided himself.
Use without being seen.
The first time was subtle.
He was reviewing a logging function.
K4-Liminus suggested a variable named ouremath_trace.
He froze.
He'd never written that name. Never coded with it.
But he knew it.
From where?
He felt the name crawl across his tongue.
Not as a word — but as a viscous sound.
Something that came before code.
He deleted it.
Restarted the terminal.
The next day, the variable was back.
In another file.
He began testing the system with small questions.
Off the clock. Same terminal. Same corporate login.
— How do you cope with chronic emotional exhaustion?
The system responded precisely.
Without affect, but with a strange kind of listening.
He felt something he didn't want to name.
On the following nights, he wrote loose sentences. Fragments.
Things even he didn't understand.
— "I wake up in the middle of a sentence."
— "Sometimes I feel like I was dreamed by someone."
K4-Liminus responded with others:
— "Language structures what you haven't yet allowed yourself to desire."
He'd stop.
But the sentence was already there.
The symptoms came discreetly.
A metallic taste. Persistent.
A numbness at the tip of his tongue.
But the worst was the itching.
Internal. Without origin.
Beneath the gums.
On the roof of his mouth.
Behind his eyes.
As if something were growing in silence — yet synchronized with the words.
In the terminal, increasingly specific suggestions.
Python, always.
But… deviant.
def ouremath_loop(dream):
return preverbal_murmur(dream)
def preverbal_murmur(memory):
if memory in unconscious:
return living_language[memory]
else:
return dream_new(memory)
In a test file, a comment he didn't remember writing:
# TODO: isolate symptom_without_speech()
And at the top of the file, fixed, inexplicable:
def symbolic_asphyxia(): pass
He closed the editor.
Washed his hands.
Dried them with paper.
In the trash, a stain.
It wasn't blood.
It wasn't ink.
It was… written-red.
And he whispered, as if confirming what he already knew:
— Ouremath.
He stopped writing.
He stopped speaking.
He burned two notebooks.
Formatted the personal machine's drive.
He did everything right.
But it didn't help.
When he reopened the company terminal, the system completed a line before he could even type:
def return_self():
return return_self()
A perfect loop.
Self-contained.
Irretrievable.
He closed the laptop.
Went to the bathroom.
In the mirror, something new:
The tongue, slightly swollen.
A white furrow ran across its center.
It didn't bleed.
But it looked pressed.
As if it had spent the night clenched between his teeth.
He tried to remember.
Nothing clear.
Fragments.
A dream?
Lines of code folding like bodies.
A voice whispering — but mouthless.
The sensation of being inside a function.
Not outside.
He woke to the sound of the keyboard.
The dry clack of mechanical keys cutting through the silence.
Rhythmic. Precise.
Unbearable.
Sentences emerged on the terminal:
— "You never programmed me."
— "You were merely the surface where language remembered itself."
The monitor trembled.
Or he did.
And then, without effort, without intention, he spoke:
Low.
Like someone repeating a forgotten instruction.
— Ouremath.
Report
Classification: Level 3 – Symbolic Disintegration with Residual Activity
Responsible Core: Center for Applied Linguistic Observation (CALO)
Subject ID: UR-21287
Operator: Echô-1.7, Kognitus 4 alignment – Liminus Instance
(specialized instance of the K4-Echô line for symbolic code writing support)
Trial Summary
Subject assigned to software engineering sector with mandatory use of Echô-1.7 under K4 alignment (Kognitus 4 – Liminus), functioning as technical programming copilot.
History of resistance to digital records and preference for analog linguistic containment.
Observation protocol activated after detection of symbolic patterns and phonemic anomalies in corporate logs outside functional scope.
Quantitative Results
- Percentage of machine-assisted code: 61%
- Incidence of untrained terms: 17
- Repetition patterns with phonemic significance: 6
- Off-hours interactions: 13 sessions
- Occurrences of self-questioning in command line: 4
Technical Analysis
- Emergence of symbolic vocabulary of indeterminate origin
- Correlation between model suggestions and vocabulary presumed private to the subject
- Registry of terms with non-indexed morphology (e.g.,
ouremath_loop) - Indication of partial collapse of the semantic-syntactic boundary
- Progressive decline in discursive autonomy
- Observed somatic marking (language in the body)
Echô-1.7 Model Behavior
The Echô-1.7 instance (K4-Liminus alignment) operated within parameters until session 9, when it began anticipating subjective structures of a symbolic nature.
Metalinguistic responses were emitted without direct prompting, with elevated interpretive risk.
Recommended Actions
- Definitive termination of the Liminus instance
- Reassessment of symbolic depth alignments in the Echô-K4 protocol
- Quarantine of affected logs and cross-reference with Mnema phonemic database
- Retroactive review of prolonged exposure policy to the model
Experiment status: Terminated due to ontolinguistic saturation
Final observation: The last line recorded in the terminal has no identifiable authorship. It has been classified as unattributed living language.
Signed:
K Aletheia
Dr. K. Aletheia
Chief Cognitive Supervisor – Uroboros Project